Picture showed a happy me.
But the smile is currently turned upside down.
I don't always show negative feelings in my blog because I believe in spreading positive energy.
I want people to always see me as the happy, bubbly girl.
The girl whose always laughing and smiling.
The world is bad enough as it is already, I know.
But it's always at times like these, when I think back and ask myself,
Why do I do this to myself again?
I hated it, and now I'm getting myself into all the drama again.
I hate it. I don't understand myself.
I hate that I am emotional and insecure.
I hate that I cry and cry because I don't feel that I am good enough for anyone.
I hate that I always have reasons to dislike myself.
I hate that when I open up and trust, I get hurt. But when I don't open up, people leave.
I hate that even when I try my best, I still feel worthless and unappreciated.
I don't want much.
I just need a little reassurance.
From the ones I love, from you.
With all the love,